Empty nest syndrome

Often times I wonder...what will our life be like when Kay isn't living with us anymore. Will I have to get a job? Will I clean more? Cook better? Will Tim and I remember how to be newlyweds? Will I ever be a mom?

Then the feeling of guilt seeps in. I realize that I use Kay as an excuse to do, or not do, so many things. It's not fair to her. I get upset when she sleeps on the couch all day and then I get upset when she does get up and attempts to help in the kitchen by moving dishes around in a method that doesn't suit me. Who will I blame when I can't find a past due bill or a magazine article? Who's fault will it be that I'm not taking better care of myself or get the laundry put away? These are all valid questions. All of them have a very simple answer...I'm just scared to admit it.

I love Kay. She's the only mother-in-law I've got. She brought Tim into this world and greeted me with a Texas hug the first time we met. She giggles from the depth of her belly when I fake a hiccup. Her eyes light up like a little girl when I bring her ice cream. She sings and claps her hands at Hallmark commercials, or Taco bell commercials. She greets everyone with a smile...anywhere! Her middle name is "Go".

Whether she knows it or not, I have been truly blessed. The lessons I have learned were not intentionally taught. Kay has been and will always be a true caretaker.